Then she told me.
My Grandma had died.
I lost it.
I felt the most pain in that instant than I have ever felt in my life.
I lost the one person that I could always count on.
The one person who really gave a shit.
The one person who I could tell anything to.
The one person who never judged me.
The one person who loved me for me, faults and all.
The one person who would always be there.
The one person who would always take me in.
The one person I could always go home to.
She's the person who taught me that blood is not thicker than water.
We did not share the same blood. In fact, we were almost the furthest from blood as two family members could be. Her son is my step father. She adopted him as a baby.
But that family bond was strong. We were family in every sense of the word.
Today, and every single day of my life, she is thought about and missed dearly. I lost a part of myself that day that she died. A part of me that will forever be gone. I'm hoping that part of me is with her.
The day that my grandma died, we went to Walmart to get some more things we needed for the new house. The last place I wanted to be was in a store, but I had to do what I had to do. We went through the Lawn and Garden center and I was walking through looking at flowers. This one just caught my eye. It was in the very back and it was the only one of it's kind. There was not even a similar one around. I picked it up, glanced at the tag and felt an instant peace surround me. This flower was called "Helen's Flower" otherwise known as "Helenium".
I don't care what religion you are, if you believe in God or some other being, but those things don't just happen.
That was my Grandma.. in a sense telling me that everything was going to be alright. Telling me that she is still here with me; that she is still here with all of us. She lives on in my backyard where that gorgeous little plant sits in my garden.
11 comments:
Beautiful post, beautiful story, and beautiful flower :) I think it definitely was a sign from her. Far greater than a comforting coincidence...
What a beautiful post for your beloved grandmother. This nearly brought me to tears, as I can tell how very much you loved her. She sounds like a wonderful woman. I think "Helen's flower" was definitely a sign that she is right there with you - then, now and always.
(hugs) Melissa...if you need me I am here okay?
What a really moving post that did bring tears to my eyes as i was really young when my grann died (oma) i was 10 and now that im married with a family at 39 i still miss her to this day i was closer to her then my own mother so when im said i go for a walk and look into the sky and chat to her. this was even hard to type as im now reary :-) Thankyou it was the most beautiful post i have read today xxx
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Thanks so much for the kind words everyone. It really means a lot.
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What a very moving, beautiful post! Grandmothers are so precious! I just love that you found a flower named after yours.
Very touching post.... I'm absolutely sure your grandmother is full of smiles up in heaven because she knows exactly how much you love her.
God Bless you and your memories of your Grandma.
Mel..I am SO sorry. I am just reading this and slobbering like a baby reading about the flower. When you listed the things your dear grandma was TO you...I felt so happy for you. I have never had
anyone quiet like her in my life. She sounds like a real life angel to you...an now she is...
Sending you love and hugs!
Eileen
I'm so sorry. Your grandma was very lucky to have someone like you in her life, who loved her so much. She's not gone, she's just away. (((HUGS)))
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