I used to be really depressed when I was younger, in my teenage years. I had a crappy life and crappy parents who cared more about themselves and their habits than they cared about me and my siblings. Since they were all 12 years or more younger than me, I had to watch them constantly since they couldn't just watch themselves.
I fell in love way younger than I should have and got my heart broken a million times in search of someone who could just love me, someone who would always be there, someone I could count on.
I spent many nights alone crying in my room listening to music. Some of my favorites {and of course pretty damn depressing too if you ask me} were Michael Bolton, Mariah Carey and Janet Jackson. They made me cry, but they also helped me in some weird way. Maybe it was just letting it all out that I needed. I don't know, I try not to dwell on those days because it was a really bad time. Seeing who I am now, that person was never really me. That was some lost little girl just searching and searching for someone.
Ok, I just cried. This stuff's getting kind of deep. I looked at the questions and it's only deeper from here. Prepare for lots of tears!
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5 comments:
I want to start doing this :)
just by looking at all the questions already got me thinking
I can relate to what u just wrote
cant wait to start Blesses
I totally relate. I consider Music my voice when I'm upset or need to express myself. Sometimes the lyrics of a song are all I need. Rascal Flats has a song called, "I'm Movin' On" which really helped me out during a difficult transition in my life.
You have enlightened me, and this exersize is perfect for my" Journey to Turning 30" I have also taken on the task of 30 days of truth. I thank you for your posts they are captivating and make me smile, to see how much we have in common. Michael Bolton..was the best..Anything on the Time Love and Tenderness Album helped me through a many day. Thankyou for being such an Inspiration, I am glad I stumbled upon your blog. I am now a daily reader and much more inspired in my own adventures of blogging! Please feel free to follow me if you like..
i'm shaking my head and thinking that's just not fair and no one should spend their childhood as you did... the blessing is that you aren't repeating that and have given your siblings a better childhood... and you will/are being rewarded for that.
Ah...also had a rough time, especially as a child and teen. Family troubles and then lala love stuff in high school...then married the idiot "high school sweetheart" thinking everything was gonna be rainbows and lucky stars!
I literally would have crumbled into the earth without music. The love songs I could relate too (Air Supply), other harder rock got me out of my funk (Aerosmith) and right now after HATING twangy country as a kid, I came on board when my teen daughter used to "push" it in the car. So now Miranda & Kenny & Keith, etc keep me sane. Music can really give you a great CONNECTION with your kids! also have to say that DANCING helped me shake out some of the crap and can turn you around. I used to love to go out to dance, or even exercise to music turned to sonic boom levels in my house, or on a treadmill can help melt away stress. Now I cant do much of that physically with health issues, but music IS a FOREVER FRIEND!
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