I grew a whole year older on Saturday. It sure isn’t as exciting as it was when I was younger. In a sense, it’s just another day. There’s nothing special or new or exciting to look forward to. It’s just another day and is definitely treated as such.
I can’t say the whole day totally sucked, but in a sense it did. I was just a little disappointed about how things turned out, but had a great time in the end with the people that really do care.
I have learned though. I will change my ways. I will not be the first to make sure that I brighten up others days, when they can’t even do the same for me. Call me bitter. Call me what you will. I will not feel sad at the hands of others. I refuse to feel sadness for things that really ultimately don’t matter. I will let it go and focus on the people that really do matter, my family. The rest of them can bite me and I can’t wait until something is needed from me. I won’t be there anymore. I will no longer be the loyal friend who is there anytime you need. Because what goes around comes around and I saw the true colors.
Something good did come out of it all though. I fell in love all over again. It sure is great to have that feeling 12 years later, the years not taking a toll for the worse. I love him and I love my boys. Life has a funny way of working out, even if you thought it didn’t.
