I don’t even know how to begin this so I will just be blunt. I lost my dad around 1:30 AM on Tuesday after he had been in the hospital for a week.
I feel at such a loss that I lost such a wonderful father. He wasn’t perfect, but he was the greatest dad that I could have ever asked for. He had a heart of gold and would do anything for anyone that he loved; hell even people he didn’t like so much sometimes.
I will miss you so much and even your silly little phrases like “By Golly” and “Dagnamit”. I will miss everything that annoyed me, even waking up because you were downstairs doing laundry or chatting loudly with the neighbors. I would miss a million hours of sleep just to have you here with us again.
You taught me to love with all my heart and in the end the damage that love can do to you. Another lesson because now I will love even deeper.
I can’t imagine a world with out you and I don’t even know how I will go on. But I do find comfort knowing that you are finally at peace. Your pleading eyes will be burned in my mind, body and soul for eternity. Only in the end did I really know what you were really trying to tell me.
Somehow we will manage and I will make sure that everyone is fine. The burden is no longer yours to carry alone.
There are a million words I wish I could say, a million moments that I wish I could take back, but a lifetime of wonderful memories that I will cherish til the end.
Until we meet again.
